I am currently in bed typing this blog post. I'm crazy tired and burned out. I had a near mental breakdown this past week. I am at the end of my master's and I'm struggling and I'm tired. I took Thursday off to do research for my paper. I worked all day and had a conversation with my mentor and after talking with her I felt I was going in the wrong direction again. I couldn't handle it. I was so worked up I didn't sleep all night and had to go to work the next day. I decided I have to push the finish line out. I cannot mentally handle the pressure of struggling and trying to figure it out while under the gun of a tight schedule. I am letting go of my original goal of being done in 6 months. I am now just focussing on finishing my last class and focussing on doing the tasks correctly rather than within X amount of days. There could still be a miracle and I could finish but I have to let that go. I'm SPENT! I love hard goals and I want a pay raise in August but it's not worth it. So I am trying to deal with the disappointment of giving up on my goal but also trying to just keep moving forward and finish. This is hard and terrible.
I can't wait until spring break. I only have one more week with students on the sewing machine. I can do it! In better news, I finished the yearbook on Monday. That is a huge thing off of my plate. We also got our bed and mattress and sheets. Scott built it yesterday. It needs a box spring. We had to order it on amazon. The bed looks pretty dumb right now because the mattress is so low. We are painting my room over spring break. I can't wait to have a new room. Well, that's all!
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| Ryan made a fox routine. I could go for a fox routine right about now. |
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| He also made a rabbit routine. |
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| New bed. |
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| Piper's star of the week wall. |
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| Gabby had another band concert. She loves to pull faces at me while I try to take a picture. |
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| BYE 21-22 yearbook! |
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